randomity.

Is there ever such a word? i guess none. maybe its "randomly" or " randomness" i dont know.

Hi my name's Aix. Well I go by that nickname just this year... i find it cool, especially pairing it with a new signature... hahah.

Yea i know, you'll find this first part a bit boring. But hey, at least you got to know something about the author of this post right?

Im not really a writer, a singer, composer, and most especially not a preacher of some sort. I know where im good at, and i know my weaknesses... that's why as much as possible I try to avoid those things where i suck. DAMN suck. and i hate it when i see that i really do suck doing those things... JUST one word. LANGUAGE. I hate doing vocabularies, i hate doing speeches, i hate doing write-ups, i hate doing interviews.

Just recently I had an interview with kids like me, its for a father's day thingi. And hell yea i did suck. damn do i made a fool out of myself. I never wanted to do the thing anyway, but becoz its for my dad.... i did. Nothing came out of my mouth just like the past interviews, speeches. I dont know what to say. Then I came to a thought when i was still in highschool... Im not that good but I can do speeches, I didnt suck that bad when i was in highschool... I had lots to say, I even joined a class debate.... but now. I cant even say a whole sentence without "UMMM-ing". sometimes when asked by my friends about something i really know(topic) I get this sudden rush of words... and i can explain it to them just because im that comfortable with them... Im a former theater actress... how come im like this... i won a declamation contest back in highschool and still im like this. weak in words. I do have a hard time expressing myself, written and spoken. written for explanations, vocabularies, projects and stuff. spoken for improntu speeches and interviews. It's either I wont be able to say a thing or Im breaking into tears the next second. I read newpapers, read books and try to remember some vocabularies. I admit I have an average iQ, but i know something is wrong with me, i tend to have this short-term memory loss, seriously.

Never will i become like my dad.

My last post (Happy 53rd bday)about my dad was unintentionally for my dad, actually it was not really for him but he liked it because its very much like me, except for those some kinda conyo words written. Happy 54th bday mom and dad... its their month. WE've been clinging to each other for 3years or so with this challenge and I dont want to destroy that bond.

CON-ASS. bite my ass.

In my personal point of view, what all of them is talking about chacha conass and whatever shmoe it is, is a good thing, it might actually let our economy rise or whatever churva, but NOT during this administration. It wont be doing good for this country if we pursue it now. Probably change will do good if it is done for our country's sake but since it is done for personal gain ... DONT bother looking for GOOD change it will do for our country. It is very obvious... THAT obvious. that they are rushing that con-ass for THIS administration... Its just the same as promoting our kababayans to be OFWs than work here, just because our country is a 3rd world country. Why is it that in the states, those small time workers earn more than those big time workers? small time meaning ... dirty jobs, cleaning sewerages, plumbers, those who collect garbages etc.... big time meaning employees or corporations. where did i hear that? Anyway... why?... ... ... dirty jobs do more for our environment and country, well every job has something. haha. but still... they are the greenest job. i just hope they do something about recycling, decomposting, and etc.

wait. has someone ever thought of changing CO2 to oxygen? kinda like breaking down alcohol and water... by evaporating its limits. what do you call that again in biology... ? or it really isnt possible? wala lng.